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God is good infinitely good

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Yung makatanggap ka ng result ng mammogram na ganito … Biglang parang hihinto yung lahat ng bagay sa paligid mo, manlalamig ka, mag-iisip, matatakot.
Habang binabasa ko yung buong results nag ring yung phone ko … Yung Doctor ko at sinasabi na kailangang bumalik ako for Sonogram. Nagpa schedule na ako agad ang pinaka maaga November 5 alas dos ng hapon.

Maaga ako dumating sa Clinic, nag sick leave na kasi ako dahil di ako gaano nakatulog that night … stress kakaisip sa result plus yung pagod at puyat dahil sa pagmomonitor ko sa pamilya ko nasalanta ng bagyong Lando sa Pilipinas.

Malamig yung room, wearing the blue cape pinahiga ako … nagpaliwanag ng procedures tapos sinimulan na yun ultrasound … medyo sinisilip-silip ko pa yung screen. Lumabas yun technician para tawagin yung Doctor na mag-iinterpret ng images. Nipicturan ko yung screen habang walang tao.

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Then dumating yung Doctor nakipag shake hands at sinabi na I have a small mass sa right breast … sabi naman nya nothing to worry about … she will be honest kung sa palagay nya ay cancer yun … ayun sa kanya Fibroadenoma daw pero dapat pa ding ipa biopsy.

Nagpa schedule na ako agad ng biopsy kinabukasan November 6 1:45pm … Ayoko na kasi patagalin pa na mag-iisip ako kung ano yung small mass na yun.

The following day maaga ako ulit sa Clinic, Again malamig yung room, the usual na explanation ng procedure na gagawin … medyo mas mahaba yung paliwanag saka iba yung pakiramdam ko nung sinasabi na after inject yun pangpamanhid … isang needle ang ipapasok to extract three samples at pagkatapos may maliit na titanium na maiiwan bilang marker ng pagkaka biopsy.

Ganun nga yung nangyari, hindi naman masakit dahil may pangpamanhid pero nakakagulat lang yung click sound everytime nag exxtract ng sample. Tatlong clicks yun.

Nakauwi naman ako ng maayos, parang walang nangyari … Kaso after one hour wala ng bisa yun pampamanhid … Simula ko ng naramdaman yung pain. The whole weekend higa mode lang ako kasi masakit pag gumagalaw.

Dumating yung Lunes kinakabahan at nagdadasal sa resulta ng biopsy … Pero natapos yung maghapon na wala ako natanggap na tawag sa Doctor … Ang hirap ulit matulog. Mabuti na lang may mga kaibigan na nakakausap at nag dadasal para sa akin, yun mga tototong kaibigan na ka close ko na napag sabihan ko ng kalagayan ko.

Martes – 11:36am … Nag ring phone ko … Good News … Benign 🙂 Nothing to worry and They’ll just see me for the Annual check.

Salamat sa Diyos … Maraming maraming salamat sa mga nag dasal … Sa wakas wala na ako iisipin at makakatulog na ako ulit ng maayos.

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All you need is just a little PATIENCE

God’s Delays Aren’t God’s Denials

When blessings are delayed, God wants you to enjoy and appreciate all the other blessings that are in your life right now.

But believe that right now, God is cooking the miracle that you need in His kitchen. He’s preparing it for you. He’s baking it to perfection.

It’s been exactly 3 months and 3 weeks since my last project ended. The 1st and 2nd month went so fast because I went back to the Philippines for my mom’s b-day. If I can only stay longer but I have to get back here and find a job for the house, car, insurance, bills etc.

I applied for unemployment benefits which really helped … $406/week were not bad to get by. But as the government letter stated “We are paying you to find a job” so I have to list at least 5 weekly work searches to continue receiving the benefits. I have to post my resume everywhere: P … monster job for example.

Recruiters said Eureka lol… they will keep on sending email and will call you for the entire job that will match your resume. I’ll have like 3 to 4 phone interviews every day … sometimes for the same job. They will force you to sign the Rights to represent document.

I have not applied for work for the last 4 years. I didn’t know that there are lots of new policies. Like you cannot work for contract after your last contract ends… you have to wait 45-60 days especially if you worked more than a year from your last job. They said that according to the law if you are working for a year then the company must hire you as permanent/local. So it prolongs the wait… Being impatient as I am hehehe I have to do something that makes me busy.

I continue my Digital Photography classes. I still have 3 subjects more to get my certification. I enrolled Night, Low Light and Flash Photography, Action Photography and Foundations of Photographic Style which is darn so boring :(. It’s nice that our HS Reunion took place here in Dallas; I have some client’s shoots on weekends and some b-day parties to attend.

As I continue my job search I applied to the entire job posting on all telecoms company near my zip code. I was lucky to get an interview on one of the job in 3 days. After the Technical interview, I got the HR interview the following week. I was surprised that the following day they already gave me the offer. I was not planning of getting a permanent job since a contract work will pay more. I asked some friends who used to work as a consultant like me why did they accepted being local. They said that the benefits will almost equal the difference of the dollar amount that we received as a contractor. So I said ok I’ll try then. I signed the job offer last August 13. The following week I have to do the drug test and now I still have to wait for the result of the back ground check.

Since I graduated from a different country international check takes forever… Yeah literally 😦 … It was really good that I still have to attend my classes while waiting.

Last update from the verification:

We are currently awaiting results needed to verify your criminal background in the Philippines. This request was submitted on 8/18/10 and average turnaround time is 15 business days. Once these results have been received your background investigation will be complete.

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Moving Forward

We’re afraid of loss. It’s very unpleasant, and yet, it’s the only way to move forward in our relationship with God. It’s a dark hallway that leads us from the past to the future, from one stage of spiritual growth to a higher level, from discipleship as a student of Jesus to apostleship as a messenger empowered by the Holy Spirit.

Loss hurts because it’s painful to be separated from what used to be. We’d rather cling to what’s familiar. We cling to the past so that we don’t have to move forward into unknown territory. We cling to our own ideas of what our lives should be like so that we won’t risk disaster in the unknowable outcomes of life’s challenges.

My contract ended last Friday. I was shocked when i received the call. I felt the sadness for I worked in that same group for almost four years. I learned new technology, met new colleagues who eventually became my friends – who taught me how to play golf, join new activities, taught me how to speak some Portuguese, Spanish, Hindi and Finnish… I also met their families for they gave me the chance to practice my skills in Photography for their special events.

As a contractor I’m quite used when a contract ends, I’ve been jumping from one project to another … one state to another since 2001. Last May 6 was my 9th year here in the US… 9th year working with Ericsson projects… from their huge BYB202 cabinets and now to their micro servers… from Wire line technology… to Bluetooth… EDGE/GPRS… GSM… 3G/UMTS… from Postpaid to Prepaid …. now with VOIP and LTE.

Funny how time pass but It just hit me that I’ve been wanted to work on my artistic side for a long time… I dreamed of being an Architect but money doesn’t allow me to become one. The scholarship grant that I’ve got made me an Engineer. I had no regret because being an Engineer fulfilled my dreams to help my family… to have our own house… to buy a car… (those common wish of everybody) and even to live here in the US (which actually I never dreamed of).

Perhaps God is telling me to do the things that I want. I guess I have enough and it’s about time to be more artistic… to do something big… something better.

For now I will start first with the much awaited vacation with my family… more relax … no time to catch … no need to hurry to come back and work. Time to enjoy the beach… the sand… the sunset… the Philippines.

PS. Happy 1-yr Miles!

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Sabado DeGloria at Visita Iglesia

Nakagawian ko ng mag fasting tuwing Good Friday but this time I tried to fast from Monday to Friday… kaso after 50 hours medyo nahihilo na ako. While chatting with my nurse friend sabi nya “Mare ano ka ba? pag diabetic hindi pwede yung basta hindi ka kakain!” Ok fine … I ate one egg sandwhich… and another one on Thursday then itinuloy ko pa din yung Friday na No Food.

I made it 🙂 … sinamahan ko na din ng No Chat, No FaceBook at No TXT the whole Friday… It’s my simple way to celebrate the Season of Lent since dito naman may pasok pa din kami sa office… regular na araw lang para sa lahat.

Then I decided to join the church visit ng GIFT Family. Dapat 14 na church kaso yun nga may pasok ako ng 3pm so ayun naka 8 na simbahan naman ako ng napuntahan. Bale yung may check lang tapos i have to go home na to prepare for work.

Na miss ko yung mga simbahan sa Pilipinas. Kasi yung mga simbahan dito mga new buildings… nakaka miss talaga yung mga lumang simbahan. But i liked the two churches… eto yung picture sa loob.

Pagkatapos mag pray at magpicture-picture umuwi na din ako. Here are some more pictures ng ibang simbahan na napuntahan ko. Click this link.

God bless to all and Happy Easter tomorrow.

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recnaC

Nabigla ako sa email na nareceived ko galing sa kumare ko. Last Sunday pa yung email kaso hindi ko nabigyang pansin agad dahil sanay naman ako na palagi nya ako pinapadalhan ng mga forwarded emails. Since naging abala ako nitong weekend dahil sa swimming competion ng playmate ko plus pumasok ako last Sunday to cover a one shift dahil may na release na naman na isang contractor.

Considered off ako today dahil may ginawa akong Maintenance Activity kagabi kaya pwedeng late magising. Actually, nagising ako sa tawag ng ex ko. Tinatanong kung dumating na yung huling package na pinadala niya. Nakalimutan ko kasing mag text na na received ko na. Syempre di pwedeng uminit ang ulo ko dahil may mali din naman ako… (annoyed) kung naconfirm ko na dumating na de sana di ako nagising …. hmmmmkei. (pahiram muna nun tito cabronie).

Enough of the intro… kinakalma ko pa kasi yung sarili ko, di ko pa din matanggap na may breast cancer yung kumare ko. Nagreply ako sa email nya na sana spam lang yun at hindi tutuo… kaso sumagot at nagconfirm na tutuo nga. Nadetect naman ng maaga so sabi nya manageable pa ito. Takot lang siguro ako sa salitang cancer dahil nawalan na ako ng isang kaibigan dahil dito.

Ang aga ko ngang tinawagan yung Nanay ko para puntahan si Mare dahil may schedule daw for operation (radical mastectomy) … oo inaamin ko di ko alam kung ano yun… tangga (pahiram muna boboJ) ako pagdating sa mga medical na terminology pero pag kasi nadinig ko yung salitang operation medyo kinakabahan na ako dahil ang naiisip ko agad yung hinihiwa, dugo, tatahiin at mga bagay na ayokong naiisip. Pagkatapos nun chemotheraphy na ang kasunod. Which is ayaw ko ding maisip dahil ang naaalala ko naman ay si idol Kiko na nawalan na ng buhok dahil sa treatment.

Hanggang ngayon di ko pa din maipaliwanag yung nararamdaman ko. Nagtataka lang ako kung bakit si Mare pa yung nagkaroon ng ganun. Considering nasa medical field siya, walang bisyo kundi kumanta at mag-alaga ng mga pamangkin nya. Health concious din naman na masasabi yung tao na yun. Hay ewan!

Sa mga kaibigan ko na nagbabasa ng blog ko. Tulungan nyo ako mag pray na sana maging successful ang operation ng kumare ko. Na bigyan siya at ang pamilya niya ng lakas ng loob para mapagtagumpayan yung mga hinaharap nila ngayon.

Papa Jesus! Bless nyo po si Mare, mabait po yun … pagalingin nyo po siya huh! Wag nyo muna kukuhanin kasi wala pa siya asawa ei… Pupunta pa siya dito sa US para magkaboyfriend ng maputi 🙂 . Bless nyo din po sila Mama at Papa duon para di sila masyado mag worry masyado. Amen.

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Miles’ blessing

I woke up at around 8:00 am medyo umaambon… I need to cover a shift of my co-engineer for he has to attend a graduation ceremony. Pagdating ko sa office mas lumakas yung ulan… hmmmn isip ko na lang na blessing yun ni God kasi schedule today ng blessing ni Miles.

Mas panatag kasi ang loob ko everytime na bumibili ako ng car or properties kahit luma man or bago yung maipa bless muna bago ko ilibot ng malayuan.

me and miles

me and miles

with my playmates

with my playmates

prayer for safety ...

prayer for safety ...

reading the scriptures

reading the scriptures

holy water

holy water

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blessing the interior, my wooden cross and rosary

blessing the interior, my wooden cross and rosary

Tara na biyahe tayo... Sakay na!

Tara na biyahe tayo... Sakay na!

Ayan pwede na gumala… Our plan is to go to Houston…

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Meet Miles

Finally after 8 years nagkaron na din ng bago 😛 … Reward ko na masasabi sa sarili ko tagal ko na din nagtyaga kay Bornoks at Bordeks … it’s time na talaga… Nakaswerte ng Zero down at 2.9APR. Pede diba?

Miles from McDavid

Miles from McDavid

urban Titanium Metallic

urban Titanium Metallic

2WD - 5 speed Automatic Transmission

2WD - 5 speed Automatic Transmission

Black Interior

Black Interior

Road test with papa Jesus

Road test with papa Jesus

Miles ready to sleep with Hausi

Miles ready to sleep with Hausi

Ramdan ko kasi kakapasa na sila Nanay papunta dito kaya kailangan ko na paghandaan yung pang roadtrip namin. Mahirap kasi pag old car hindi reliable lalo na kasama ang buong family. Naisip ko na mag mini-SUV kaya pinagcompare ko ang CRV at RAV4. Parehas naman silang ok kaso nga lang yung model ng RAV4 na walang tire sa may likod masyado ng wala sa budget.

CRV vs RAV4

CRV vs RAV4

Bukod sa ok na din yung naging Trade In value ni Bordeks nabigyan pa ako ng 1500 na cash incentive plus napilit ko pang malibre yung Fog light 😛

May Hausi na saka si Miles… Papa Jesus sana po ma approved na Visa ng family ko saka ng bestfriend ko para makapunta na sila dito at mailibot ko sila. Amen.

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